This is one of those intensely personal posts. At least, it’s intensely personal to me. It’s both metaphorical and literal, but it comes from a deep part of my heart.
I don’t believe in soul mates or “the one.” In fact, when it comes to matters of love in relationships, I am completely unromantic. I’m practical. I believe in choices.
This week, I made a choice.
If I believed in soul mates or “the one”, I might have made a different choice. Because if I believed in such things, I just walked away from mine.
But I don’t believe in soul mates or “the one.”
I believe in choices.
In the case of the elephant and the mountain, neither choice was blatantly better or worse than the other, more or less God’s will. In fact, they are both excellent options. Both give me peace, and both come naturally.
I didn’t know it was a choice until the elephant was gone. I was a little bit panicked, at first, having lost the elephant. I wanted to retrace my steps to find the it, but in my heart, I already knew where I lost it. The elephant could not come with me where I had resolved to go.
I didn’t actually see the mountain until after the elephant had disappeared. I didn’t even know there was a mountain, but when I saw it, I just knew. I was made for this mountain.
This choice puts me in a different trajectory than what I had planned, and yet, it’s somehow exactly what I’ve dreamed about and imagined.
My New Year’s Resolution for 2013 is Psalm 37:3-5, 7a: “Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass … Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him.” As I have trusted, delighted in, committed my plans to, rested in, and waited on God this year, I realize more and more who I am created to be. And as I grow more and more into that, options begin to disappear on their own.
It’s a beautiful thing!
“God gives us a vision and then puts us in the valley in order to sift us, sand us, discipline us, prune us – in other words, to rid us of all that would be a hindrance to us climbing or living on top of the mountain.” ~Dr. Charles Stanley, The Source of My Strength