I learned something incredible yesterday.
For years (and by years, yes, I do mean basically my entire life), my dad has gotten on me about “giving up too easily” and “taking the easy way out/the path of least resistance.” I asked him about it one day (because I didn’t understand), and he told me he meant that if I am presented with two options, I will take the one I think is easiest. My response was, “Who wouldn’t?” I came to realize (eventually) that choosing the easy option circumvents a lot of character growth. This realization led to a lot of (now deleted) blog posts.
That’s not the point, though. Yesterday I learned at my college and career group that this “path of least resistance” thing is true of most of my generation. (The Millenials). I totally want to sit down with my dad and be like, “See, it’s not just me. It’s a whole generation of people.”
No, I’m only kidding. That conversation would not end well for me.
And the point is not really that it’s not just me, either. I have a big, huge, fat problem with waiting. Like, I believe God has called me to Seattle, so I focus on getting there, because I want to be there, even though I know deep down, God will get me there when He wants me there. I end up focusing MOST of my time and energy on getting myself there, rather than being here, where I am. (Let that sink in). All because I think I should be there now, I think it’s time. And I mostly think it’s time because I hate feeling unsettled.
Being settled, having arrived. Another thing that isn’t just me.
I’m reminded again, I’m transient (Psalm 39).
I’m at this place in life, only for a season, but for specific purpose. Maybe soon, maybe not, this place and this season will be gone, and I’ll be in a new place, in a new season. It’s not bad too have dreams, and I don’t ever want to lose sight of the fact that God may never have me one place or season for very long, but when what will be overshadows what is, then I have a problem.
All the while, I also have to remind myself: it is okay that I have not arrived. Nobody has. (Not even the people who think they have).