For the Ones with Ears to Hear #2

“I would attend [a LGBT wedding] with gladness, and I would drink champagne. I want the very best for my gay friends. I want love and happiness and faithfulness and commitment and community. Yes. That’s an easy answer … We want for all of our kids the same thing: faithful, committed marriage and a beautiful family that is committed to God and the church. I would have the same standard across the board, no matter what.”

“Do you think an LGBT relationship can be holy?”

“I do.”

~Jen Hatmaker, in an interview with Jonathan Merritt of Religion News Service, October 25, 2016.


“In the Bible, rain is a sign of God’s blessing.”

~Franklin Graham, Inaugural Prayer, January 20, 2017

To the Christian leaders who have set themselves up against what God has revealed about Himself:

“Woe to the foolish prophets who follow their own spirit and have seen nothing, who prophesy out of their own imagination.

“You have not gone up to the breaches in the wall to repair it for My people so that they will stand firm in the battle on the day of the LORD … You lead My people astray, saying, ‘Peace,’ when there is no peace, and because when a flimsy wall is built, you cover it with whitewash … By lying to My people, who listen to lies, you have killed those who should not have died and have spared those who should not live.

“Because you disheartened the righteous with your lies, when I had brought them no grief, and because you encouraged the wicked not to turn from their evil ways and so save their lives … So I will pour out my wrath  against the wall and against those  who covered it with whitewash.

“I will save My people from your hands.”

~excerpts from Ezekiel 13 NIV

Ezekiel 13 is for the prophets of Israel, I can hear someone protesting. Absolutely. It also shows us something unchanging about God: He is jealous for His people and He will not allow them to be lead away from Him by false prophets and shepherds.

Render them mute, Heavenly Father, in Jesus’ name. Level every platform that sets itself against what You have revealed about Yourself, in Jesus’ name. If we are not about repairing the breaches to strengthen and equip Your people for spiritual battle, sit us down and shut us up, in Jesus’ name.

“Some Pharisees came to him to test him. They asked, ‘Is it lawful for a man to divorce his wife for any and every reason?’ ‘Haven’t you read,” he replied, ‘that at the beginning the Creator ‘made them male and female, and said, For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh? So they are no longer two, but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate…Not everyone can accept this word, but only those to whom it has been given. For there are eunuchs who were born that way, and there are eunuchs who have been made eunuchs by others—and there are those who choose to live like eunuchs for the sake of the kingdom of heaven. The one who can accept this should accept it” (Matthew 19:3-6, 11-12 NIV).

“Jesus replied, ‘You are in error because you do not know the Scriptures or the power of God. At the resurrection people will neither marry nor be given in marriage; they will be like the angels in heaven'” (Matthew 22:29-30 NIV).

“[The Heavenly Father] causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous” (Matthew 5:45 NIV).


Grateful for her life. Grateful for all the stories she shared with me. Grateful for all the stories she let me share with her. Grateful she knew who I was the last time I saw her, if only for a moment.

She used to say when I would share my stories with her that she knew. She knew by the play conversations I had on my toy phone as a little girl that I had the imagination to be a writer.

When people look at me, they see my Mom – I get so much from my Mom – but the stories, the stories come from this woman.

Love her and miss her, but oh so grateful that this woman was my Grandma.


The Bible, Mrs. Stanton, and Me

It was a dark mark on my Christian good girl record, the day I admitted I couldn’t accept that God said everything the Bible says He said.

It was the middle of July, and I was reading through the Pentateuch and the Gospels simultaneously – specifically, that day, I was in Numbers 15 and Luke 6.

While the Israelites were in the wilderness, a man was found gathering wood on the Sabbath day.  Those who found him gathering wood brought him to Moses and Aaron and the whole assembly, and they kept him in custody, because it was not clear what should be done to him. Then the Lord said to Moses, ‘The man must die. The whole assembly must stone him outside the camp.’ So the assembly took him outside the camp and stoned him to death, as the Lord commanded Moses. (Numbers 15:32-36 NIV).

I would have wrestled with this passage anyway, because I could be missing something, but the only time I remember the offender’s death being commanded as a punishment in conjunction with breaking the Sabbath in the law is in Exodus 31, and even there, another punishment is given as well: the offender being cut off from their people. (I confess I struggle with where the punishment of  the offender’s death is prescribed for other sins in Leviticus, because then what was the point of setting up atonement?) Then, I flipped over to Luke 6, and I was really in trouble.

One Sabbath Jesus was going through the grainfields, and his disciples began to pick some heads of grain, rub them in their hands and eat the kernels. Some of the Pharisees asked, “Why are you doing what is unlawful on the Sabbath?” Jesus answered them, “Have you never read what David did when he and his companions were hungry? He entered the house of God, and taking the consecrated bread, he ate what is lawful only for priests to eat. And he also gave some to his companions.”  Then Jesus said to them, “The Son of Man is Lord of the Sabbath.” On another Sabbath he went into the synagogue and was teaching, and a man was there whose right hand was shriveled.  The Pharisees and the teachers of the law were looking for a reason to accuse Jesus, so they watched him closely to see if he would heal on the Sabbath.  But Jesus knew what they were thinking and said to the man with the shriveled hand, “Get up and stand in front of everyone.” So he got up and stood there. Then Jesus said to them, “I ask you, which is lawful on the Sabbath: to do good or to do evil, to save life or to destroy it?” He looked around at them all, and then said to the man, “Stretch out your hand.” He did so, and his hand was completely restored. But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law were furious and began to discuss with one another what they might do to Jesus. (Luke 6:1-12 NIV)

Now, I know from the Gospels that Jesus is God, and, especially from the book of John, that He came to reveal the Father to us, the human race. These passages seem to present two opposing views of God, or at the very least, taken together, a God who makes things up as He goes.

That day in July, I found I couldn’t trust a God who makes things up as He goes. I don’t think anybody could, not really. So, I had a choice: I could believe what Moses said about God, or I could believe what Jesus said about God.

And I am a Christian. My faith, my theology, my everything is centered around this belief that Jesus is God, and the only way for sinners to know God and experience God’s presence. If I don’t have Him, I don’t have anything.

I chose Jesus. More accurately, I chose to filter everything – including everything in the Bible – through the things He said and did. And He has been my standard for whether I accept or reject anything as coming from God.

But, being a Christian good girl somewhat respected for her doctrinal soundness, I kind of hoped this break with orthodoxy would be temporary, partially so I wouldn’t have to let anyone know I’d had a break with orthodoxy until after I’d have a testimony of God’s restoration to it, and partially because it opened me up to a whole new world of doubt. A month in, no such restoration was in sight and my doubts threatened to overwhelm me, so I shared about it publicly. I didn’t go into the particulars I’m sharing today, but I let people into it.

In the middle of being told that the Bible was God’s Word no matter what anyone thought, and that His ways and thoughts are higher than mine and I should dismiss my thoughts and accept that even revealed things are sometimes unknowable, and the well-meant warnings about the dangers in my thinking, and people reaching out to say they were praying, one friend asked a question that went straight to my heart: What has changed? And I realized, nothing fundamental had. I still believe Jesus is God, and that He is the only way for sinners to know God and experience God’s presence. And then I had peace about where I had landed, even if it was permanent.

It’s been six months now, and I still have peace about it, but I’ve been thinking about what my life will look like going forward as a result this week.

On Sunday, at the church I’ve been visiting, the pastor asked how many of us would be willing to raise our hands and admit we had faith-related doubts. I don’t think he was actually asking us to raise our hands, but would I have raised mine? This is a new church for me, you know? I like these people. I see myself here. But I know, when it comes time for that commitment called membership, I’ll be presented with a list of beliefs, and one of them will describe the Bible as the inspired and infallible Word of God. (Inspired – that is, something divinely breathed in – I can get behind fairly easily; infallible – that is, the quality of being without error – poses a significant block for me.)  If I want to join these people and serve with them in the ways I’ve served other local churches, something will have to change in my thinking.

I mean, I could just go along and act like I believe to get where I think I’m supposed to be in ministry, but that’s not an integrity move. In fact, it feels a lot like the selfish ambition I’ve been convicted about lately – the desire and drive to be seen a certain way.

Maybe God is going to use this season with this church to rid me of that selfish ambition. Maybe God is going to use this season with this church to restore the belief that the Bible is His inspired, infallible Word. Maybe God is going to use this season with this church to establish me in a ministry that can’t be contained to a local church body. Maybe God is going to use this season with this church for something else entirely. I don’t know.

You know what I do know? God is using this season with this church. He’s using it to get me back into reading the Pentateuch, something I gave up when I hit that bump in Numbers back in July. He’s using it to get me back wrestling with the Pentateuch. The women’s Bible study is going through Genesis, and the life group I visited is going through Leviticus. *squinty eyes at God* You see what He did there?

It’s hard. Everything is coming back from the last time I was here, including the reason I started a mad dash through the Pentateuch to begin with.

And here it is…

The Woman’s Bible edited by Elizabeth Cady Stanton, a commentary compiled at the end of the nineteenth century by a number of feminists seeking to answer these questions: “Have the teachings of the Bible advanced or retarded the emancipation of women? Have they dignified or degraded the Mothers of the Race?” Before having read The Woman’s Bible, I would have stated unequivocally that the Bible has advanced the emancipation of women, and dignified the mothers of the human race. Instead, once finished with the volume, I was confronted with the fact that the Bible has at the very least played an ongoing role in the subjugation of women and fed her degradation. For me, the question was whether that role has been passive or active, and I set out in the Pentateuch and the Gospels in May to find an answer. Among other things, I found that whereas Jesus respected the personhood of women, and treated them with dignity in his interactions with them, the Mosaic law often treats them as less responsible and accountable beings before God, and gave them less access to Him. (According to Mosaic law, for example, a father had the God-given authority to release his unwed daughter from a vow. If you want to hear about the real life application of this in my own life, we should get coffee sometime.) 

So I’m hesitant to revisit this place where orthodox Christianity insists that God holds me less responsible and accountable before Him, and that God is not quite as accessible to me, because I am a woman.

Hesitant, but not unwilling.

And as I prepared for the Genesis Bible study a few weeks ago, God met me in that willingness with something I’d forgotten about Jacob’s story, and that was … the big picture. God met Jacob at Bethel as a young man and promised to be with him, to watch over him, to restore him, and to be faithful to keep the promises He made (Gen. 28:15). And it was twenty years and several mistakes later, but Jacob was restored at Bethel (Gen. 35). The big picture is that God wants to make us right, to get us back to His presence, to life with Him – a perspective that was all too easy to lose looking at the Bible through a human construct.

I still think there are things the Bible says God said and commanded and did that directly oppose things Jesus said and commanded and did, and I still have to reject those things. But hopefully I can gain some lost ground by considering the eternal – that is, timeless – redemptive purposes of God. And hopefully I fully occupy my place in Him, whatever that looks like, day by day.

“The trouble is too often instead of searching the Bible to see what is right, we form our belief, then search for Bible texts to sustain us, and are satisfied with isolated texts without regard to context, and ask no questions as to the circumstances that may have existed then but do not now. We forget that portions of the Bible are only histories of events given as a chain of evidence to sustain the fact that the real revelations of the Godhead, be it in any form, are true” (Clara Bewick Colby, The Woman’s Bible).

What We Do with The Blank Spaces

I’ve made myself a bucket list of adventures I want to have in 2017, and this was one of them. My goal is to go on one such adventure every month in 2017, because I’ve found it’s deeply restorative for me to get out and explore. My list is incomplete, so if anyone has any must-see recommendations for Oklahoma or the surrounding states, I’d love to hear them. (Here is the list of places I’ve been.)

This past Saturday I went on a little adventure to the Oklahoma City Museum of Art. It was such a gorgeous day, that when I had finished there, I wandered around downtown and then in the Historical District, taking pictures.


16406968_10100637725651427_1072466919178212079_n(Downtown Church)

16388092_10100637725751227_4829707294485001791_n(The Oklahoma City National Memorial)

16266273_10100637725711307_1234822229592295289_n(A sculpture at the Memorial called Vigil)

You can view the full Downtown Oklahoma City Album here.

16387354_10100638404585837_5864863730712445871_n(A somewhat haunting view of the Historical District)

16174733_10100638404510987_3629283808399118889_n(Muted tones in the Historical District)

16265400_10100637754348917_8824193518329635752_n(The branches of the trees in the Historical District were particularly striking against the blue sky)

You can view the full Historical District Album here.

But I want to circle back to the Museum of Art.

In my opinion, the crowning exhibits at the Museum were the WPA (Works Progress Administration) Collection and Dale Chihuly’s Magic and Light Collection.

The Works Progress Administration was of course established as part of President Franklin D. Roosevelt’s New Deal, and it funded thousands of artists through its Federal Arts Project arm. The Oklahoma City Museum of Art houses twenty-eight pieces by twenty-six artists.

16406602_10100637725526677_3474297402372343968_n(I was particularly drawn by the cubist elements in this piece from William S. Schwartz, as well as the combined realism of industry and nature. I looked at it for a while, then I went back and looked again.)

The Chihuly Magic and Light exhibit features glass-blown sculptures and if you ever get the chance to see a Chihuly exhibit, just do it. It’s incredible.

16266181_10100637725581567_203280408826478368_n(This really doesn’t do it justice.)

Even before going to the Museum of Art on Saturday, I knew that my taste in art tends to have heavy realist elements, and that those elements have to be presented in a striking way, or it just won’t capture my attention. I like thinking about curation, or the order and placement of art. I also enjoy pretty things, like glass-blown sculptures.

I am not, however, a fan of abstract art. I’ve tried, y’all. I’ve spent hours in front of random splotches of color on canvasses and I just haven’t gotten it. Until Saturday, when Sam Francis explained it to me.


Apparently, Sam Francis embraced this style because of “[the] spiritual significance of white in both Western and Eastern religions” and “inspired his interpretation of the blank canvas as ‘ringing silence … an endless, ultimate point at the end of your life.’ In reaction to his own fearful reverence of the void, Sam Francis confronted this ‘visible absence of color’ by flinging bright paint onto it” (Oklahoma City Museum of Art).

That I understand.

It reminds me of a phrase from one of my favorite passages of Scripture: “[God] has planted eternity in the human heart” (Ecclesiastes 3:11b NLT).

It reminds me of The Curate of Glaston by George MacDonald, where the various characters grapple with what happens when we die throughout the story, and how our beliefs about what will happen when we die shape our lives.

It reminds me of how I use my own creative spark as a means to fill the blanks, the vacuums, the voids, the unknowns I encounter in my own life.

I think we all do, if in different ways.

Discomfort with the unknown is intrinsic to the human experience. We all have to deal with the discomfort, because the Only One who knows everything is God. And I can’t help but think all of our creative endeavors to fill the unknowns – however they are expressed – are at least a coping mechanism for the discomfort, if not a way to be rid of it altogether. We can’t handle unknowing, and so we create in an attempt to know and understand what we cannot.

Around the New Year, God convicted me to move my daily quality time with Him from evening to morning. I have no idea why. I mean, I hoped I would have some sort of evening routine, maybe involving my long-neglected fiction writing, but so far, no two evenings have been alike. Maybe I cook, maybe I clean, maybe I read, maybe I write, maybe I go to a Bible study, maybe I talk with friends and family, maybe I watch Netflix, maybe I process something that happened in my day, or maybe I do some combination of activities. There is no routine. In fact, best I can tell, I am supposed to keep my evenings routine-free for an unknown purpose.

I don’t get it. I don’t particularly like it. I mean, I could handle routine-free if I understood why. And if I had a routine, I wouldn’t be so preoccupied with why. But I don’t have either. I just have time that is being filled as it comes.

And maybe someday I will understand why that’s necessary right now, or maybe I won’t. What’s important is that I continue to seek God, and move as He reveals, and this is what He has shown me for right now.

It’s that simple, and it’s that difficult.

A Tale of Two Grandmothers


*Please note the following is reflective of my limited personal experiences and impressions.*

On Christmas Eve, my Grandma – who has dementia – said, “Lydia! Who is that boy sitting next to you?” It was my younger brother, and when I told her so, she said, “He looks just like the boy sitting next him.” The boy sitting next to him was her son and our uncle, and while the resemblance between them is striking, that moment meant so much to me, because in that moment, my Grandma – who has dementia – knew who I was.



My maternal grandmother – we called her Granny – passed away nearly twelve years ago. She, too, suffered from Alzheimer’s and dementia. And it was her I dreamed of last night.



I was standing at the front of her house, looking down the hallway, through the dining and living areas, and she was standing in the kitchen, which is where she almost always was when I saw her in that house. She just stood there, beyond the gate, dressed all in white, looking at me. In the dream, I knew I was just a stranger to her, and in her house no less, and I called out, “Hi, Granny,” so she would know I wasn’t an intruder, so she would know how we were connected. Still, she didn’t know me, and I think, was afraid of me. I thought that was just as well; after all, neither one of us belonged there – her, because she wasn’t alive anymore, and I, because that house had been sold many years ago and I had no claim to it.



I knew the dream was significant as soon as I woke from it. For one thing, a friend prayed very specifically over my dreams earlier this week, and for another, this dream was vivid. (I dream often, but rarely remember specific details when I wake.) But I didn’t  understand its significance immediately. I had to pray and ponder.



We are going to lose my Grandma soon. Hospice was called in just a few days before I saw her on Christmas Eve. I think that’s why it meant so much to me that she had a moment when she knew who I was, even if it was only a moment – that was likely to be my last time seeing her alive. She has lived a long, full life, of course, but I think she is the first person I have known and loved – I mean, really known and loved – that I will lose.



She never hesitated to share her stories with me, you know. Was always willing to tell me about herself and her family when I developed an interest in family history. She even read every story I shared with her. And trust me, some of them were truly terrible, but she always encouraged me to write. We shared stories.



Everything I know about my maternal grandmother, I learned secondhand. I didn’t know her. And even in her lucid moments, I’m not certain she would have known who I was. She might have known I was her granddaughter, but I doubt she would have been able to name me, or anything about me. We shared no stories.



There are many reasons for this lack, not the least of which was her stilted relationship with my parents. Our family visited her a few times a year – usually around the Coast Guard Festival and around Christmas. She always sent us home with big bags of candy, but I had the impression early on that my presence wasn’t particularly important to her; in fact, I felt like a nuisance, an unwelcome intruder. We were often restricted to the same places as the dog on our visits – the kitchen and the back room on our visits. I don’t think I even saw the entire house until after she’d gone into the nursing home and we were cleaning it out to sell. She wasn’t open, and I wasn’t comfortable enough with her to ask her anything.



But it was more than that. I wasn’t curious enough to ask her anything. She was perpetually dismissive, and by the time it was apparent she was losing her memory, I wanted nothing to do with her, either. Thankfully, I was at an age where that wasn’t up to me, and my Mom brought my younger siblings and I out to visit her every Thursday. And thankfully, my Mom had the foresight to ask things for me before her memory was completely gone, because I was indifferent at the time.



I rarely give her a second thought even now, unlike my Grandma, who is almost always in my thoughts these days, so I could not fathom why she was the one in my dream last night. There was the dementia link, of course, but these women were so different, it didn’t make sense that I should be thinking of one and dreaming of the other.



And as I looked down that hallway again in my mind’s eye at my maternal grandmother and she looked back at me, afraid of intruding and being intruded upon, I realized: we are the same. I cannot fault her for restricting people to certain areas of her life, because I do the same thing. It’s a protective mechanism to keep from showing anything that can be used against us. We’re told we’re cold and unfeeling, when really, we feel so much we want to tear out our beating hearts. You just don’t see it, because we don’t let you, because impenetrability is our strength. We show little or nothing as we do whatever needs doing, and we wonder why people can’t see how much we care, how they can think we don’t love them, how they can assume the meanest and very worst things about us.



And I am tempted to accept this as my lot in life as her granddaughter, but she was not my only instructor in the school of strength.



My Grandma taught me to be open with people, to be open to people. Even when it means sharing stories of our imperfections, or sharing our imperfect impressions of ourselves and the things through which we’ve lived. She stands at the end of her life with a man who I imagine knows just about everything there is to know about her and still holds her hand, because if she remembers nothing else, she remembers what they’ve shared. She remembered me, if only briefly, because we shared stories.



I want to stand at the end of my life like that, you know? But I also want to pick and choose what I let people into.



And if this dream has made me realize anything, it’s that I cannot have it both ways.



Two strong women, in my opinion. Two different kinds of strength – the kind that keeps other people out, and the kind that lets other people in. I belong to both, and both taught me their strength, and unlike my dimpled smile, which grandmother’s strength I adopt is not up to genetics.



It is character, and it is chosen.



“Do not put trust in princes, in human beings who cannot save. When their spirits depart, they return to the ground; on that very day, their plans come to nothing. Blessed are those whose help is the God of Jacob, whose hope is in the LORD their God. He is the Maker of heaven and earth, the sea, and everything in them – He remains faithful forever. He upholds the cause of the oppressed and gives food to the hungry. The LORD sets prisoners free, the LORD gives sight to the blind, the LORD lifts up those who are bowed down, the LORD loves the righteous. The LORD watches over the foreigner and sustains the fatherless and the widow, but He frustrates the ways of the wicked” (Psalm 146:3-10 NIV).

For The Ones with Ears to Hear

For the past two years, the exercise of my spiritual gift has largely been intercessory. (Before that, I’d say it was equal parts denying it and agonizing over what to do with it once there was no denying it.) In November, that started to shift. Of course, intercession will remain vital in this exercise, but now God is also calling me to also speak forth and speak into what He has revealed. Most often, in the past two months, this has come as encouragement and mild exhortation that anyone can get behind. Today, I come with a warning and a call that is at odds with both the evangelical Christian community and our culture at large.

For the ones with ears to hear:

Yesterday, President Donald Trump closed his Inaugural Address with this thought: “We stand at the birth of a new millennium, ready to unlock the mysteries of space, to free the earth from the miseries of disease, and to harness the energies, industries, and technologies of tomorrow.” And not long after, one of the most respected evangelical leaders in the United States, Franklin Graham, stood and affirmed President Trump’s administration, saying that in the Bible, rain is a sign of God’s blessing.

Lord, have mercy.

We stand ready … to unlock … to free … to harness … As if we have that power. As if we can know anything without it first being revealed by You. As if we can free anyone from anything. As if any of the earth’s resources belong to us and can be contained by us.

And yet, our nation is plagued with this hubris. At one time or another, we have all believed that the answers to human issues are within ourselves, or at least within humanity as a collective. One tends to be a conservative approach, and the other liberal, but both keep us blind to You and our need for You. We are often willfully blind, because we want to be our own gods and our own saviors.

Those whose candidate lost in November mourn the loss of a champion who would have led our nation, to fewer borders and boundaries and distinctions, to a higher human consciousness that would ultimately save us and our world. Those whose candidate won in November rejoice in the victory of a champion who will lead our nation to save itself, and in turn, save the world. For thousands of years of failed humans and human systems, there is still an inordinate amount of faith in them – especially given the caliber of the leading choices this past election cycle – because of our stubborn refusal to recognize our need for a force outside of ourselves.

Lord, have mercy.

“Pride,” the Proverb says, “goes before destruction.”

And because President Trump’s words are only an indication of a much deeper cultural problem, it is incumbent upon me to warn that our nation is on the verge of destruction.

Lord, have mercy.

The first time rain is recorded in the Bible, it is judgment (Genesis 6:1-7). There is one instance that I can think of where rain was the product of Elijah’s intercession (1 Kings 17-18, James 5:17-18), but in the context of the story, I think it says more about God blessing Elijah, not King Ahab. The best reference to rain I can find in the Bible is this from the ultimate authority on any matter, Jesus: “He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous” (Matthew 5:45).

So why Franklin Graham, a respected leader within the evangelical Christian community, chose to stand before our nation and say that rain in the Bible is an indication of God’s favor is inexcusable – that is, there is no good reason for it. But, as President Trump’s words are only an indication of a heart issue in American culture, so are Mr. Graham’s words are only an indication of a heart issue in the American Church.

Lord, have mercy.

We are terrified of losing our status, our position as the reigning institution in this country. We have learned that the more we are seen, and the more we are seen in a certain light, the greater our influence – that is, our ability to mould the thoughts, opinions, and actions of others. In this we have adopted the hubris of our society, clumsily attempting to do things only You can.

The difference is, we – as Your Church – should know better. After all, we have been afforded every luxury to seek and know You better. We are without excuse.

But in our ease, we have become fat and lazy, we haven’t fought to know You as we should. We have picked and chosen parts of You, making You over in our image. If we are angry about something, we make You angry. If we have an opinion on something, we make it Your opinion. If we bless something, we make You bless it. If something is out of our reach, we make it out of Your reach. It’s easier, more convenient for You to be like us.

And when Your Church, a body intended to reveal Jesus to the world, reveals instead the god we have made after human likeness, You will correct us.

Lord, have mercy.

“She said, ‘I will go after my lovers, who give me my food and my water, my wool and my linen, my olive oil and my drink.’ Therefore I will block her path with thornbushes; I will wall her in so that she cannot find her way. She will chase after her lovers but not catch them; she will look for them but not find them. Then she will say, ‘I will go back to my husband as at first, for then I was better off than now.’ She has not acknowledged that I was the one who gave her the grain, the new wine and oil, who lavished on her the silver and gold—which they used for Baal. Therefore I will take away my grain when it ripens, and my new wine when it is ready. I will take back my wool and my linen, intended to cover her naked body.  So now I will expose her lewdness before the eyes of her lovers; no one will take her out of my hands. I will stop all her celebrations: her yearly festivals, her New Moons, her Sabbath days—all her appointed festivals. I will ruin her vines and her fig trees, which she said were her pay from her lovers; will make them a thicket, and wild animals will devour them. I will punish her for the days she burned incense to the Baals; he decked herself with rings and jewelry, and went after her lovers, but me she forgot, declares the Lord” (Hosea 2:5b-13 NIV).

And just like the United States is on the verge of destruction, the American Church is about to undergo fierce discipline.

The tide of our nation’s destruction can be turned, but only if American believers rise up against it.

You promised, “If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land” (2 Chronicles 7:14 NIV).

We are sorry, Lord. Sorry for all the ways we have tried to be You. Sorry for all the ways we have tried to make You like us. We are without excuse.

But so thankful, Lord, that You are bigger than us. That Your ways and thoughts are higher than ours.

Allure us now, Lord, into the wilderness as You did with Israel. Take away everything we love that is not You. Take away everything we’re using to reveal ourselves, and not you. Take away our ease and privilege and luxury. Get us alone with You, so we can learn who You really are, so we can become obsessed with You and revealing You to a nation who needs You.

Please forgive us and restore us, Your Church. Make us such a body as our nation and our world is without excuse as well.

In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

“These are the words of the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the ruler of God’s creation. I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other!  So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.  You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.’ But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked.  I counsel you to buy from me gold refined in the fire, so you can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so you can cover your shameful nakedness; and salve to put on your eyes, so you can see. Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest and repent. Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me” (Revelation 3:14-20 NIV).














What do you know?

“Now this I know: The Lord gives victory to his anointed. He answers him from his heavenly sanctuary with the victorious power of his right hand” (Psalm 20:7 NIV).

“I know that the Lord secures justice for the poor and upholds the cause of the needy” (Psalm 140:12 NIV).

As I’ve seen God rise up for me in the past two months, this is what I know:

  • God is so much bigger than me, and none of His plans, purposes, and promises can be thwarted by what I do or don’t do.
  • God fiercely loves, jealously protects, and mercifully vindicates His own.
  • God lays things on our hearts to pray – things He wants to do. He gives us grace to pray these things, and powerfully works through them.
  • God removes things we’re praying for from our hearts, and the grace to pray for them, not necessarily because He’s done working, but because He’s working in a different way.
  • God ordains and changes the seasons of our lives.
  • God cares about what I care about.
  • God doesn’t force anyone’s hand.
  • God alone satisfies.
  • God speaks to us in whatever way we will hear, because God wants to be heard.
  • God is not impressed when we’re out doing “big” things for Him when the things closest to home are neglected.
  • God alone redeems.

What do you know?

“No one can redeem the life of another or give to God a ransom for them—the ransom for a life is costly, no payment is ever enough—so that they should live on forever and not see decay … But God will redeem me from the realm of the dead; He will surely take me to Himself” (Psalm 49:7-9,15 NIV).
Redemption is the “act of recovering ownership of something by paying a sum.”
I can do many things.
Redemption of life is not one of them.
Not for myself, not for anyone else.
Redemption is God’s work, and God’s work alone.

Let the Redeemed of the LORD Tell Their Story!

“Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever. Let the redeemed of the Lord tell their story—those he redeemed from the hand of the foe … Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for mankind, for he satisfies the thirsty and fills the hungry with good things … Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for mankind, for he breaks down gates of bronze and cuts through bars of iron … He sent out his word and healed them; he rescued them from the grave. Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for mankind … He stilled the storm to a whisper; the waves of the sea were hushed. They were glad when it grew calm, and he guided them to their desired haven. Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for mankind … He turned the desert into pools of water and the parched ground into flowing springs; there he brought the hungry to live, and they founded a city where they could settle. They sowed fields and planted vineyards that yielded a fruitful harvest; he blessed them, and their numbers greatly increased, and he did not let their herds diminish … Let the one who is wise heed these things and ponder the loving deeds of the Lord” (excerpts from Psalm 107).

“If you’ve got pain,
He’s a paintaker.
If you feel lost,
He’s a waymaker.
If you need freedom or saving,
He’s a prison-shaking Savior.
If you’ve got chains,
He’s a chainbreaker” (Zach Williams, Chainbreaker).